03 February 2010

Fear Not!

It's a little past eleven o'clock. I have taken some Xanax and an Ambien in hopes that I will sleep well, and not be troubled with any anxiety during the night.

I am so grateful for your prayers and words of love and encouragement regarding my surgery tomorrow. Honestly, I cannot believe that this day is here.

Each day since Monday I have felt more and more comfort.

I have always been a proponent of the philosophy that "knowledge is power". As I met with the anesthesiologist yesterday and he addressed my concerns (OK, who is kidding who--they were darn right fears) I felt much less fearful about that aspect of the surgery. Understanding what will happen each step of the way helps me. Today I spoke with three of my sisters, Ruth Ellen Jo Ann and Colleen, who also, from their own experiences helped me understand and fear it less.

This afternoon I met with Dr. Donald Hanna, my plastic surgeon who will be doing the reconstruction surgery. I felt such confidence in him as he talked me through the steps of what will happen tomorrow, and then what will happen in the coming weeks and months as the reconstruction process continues. I also left with an awful lot of purple marker drawn all over my chest. I am a sight right now.

My surgery is scheduled for 12:30 p.m. The estimated time of surgery is anywhere from 6 to 8 hours. It will be late in the evening before I will be in my room at Wake Med Cary. I will probably have Doug or one of my daughters post an entry late tomorrow night or early Friday with an update.

There is a scripture in the New Testament that has been going through my mind since Monday evening. It has brought me great comfort.

"For God hath not given us the spirit of fear; but of power and of love, and of a sound mind"
2 Timothy 1:7

I feel the power that comes through my faith in Christ and the love that embraces me from you, my friends and from my Father in Heaven. My mind is now at peace with the process that awaits me tomorrow and in the coming months.

My fears are replaced with the Power of Love.


alstruyk-PIRACY said...

Ms. Sally I am praying for you today and always.
Love you dearly


Leann said...

Love, prayers, and positive thoughts are coming your way at this very moment and will continue throughout the day.
What a blessing to be able to get the surgery over with sooner rather than later. Believe me - it's no fun hanging around and waiting for it.
Can't wait to stop by and see you soon!
Love and hugs,

Anonymous said...

We love you!
Shawn, Daydee and family

Catherine said...

Mom - Love you so mcuh! You are getting rid of darn Genevieve and on the way to recovery.

melissa said...

What a beautiful scripture! I am thinking of you and praying for you during your surgery today.

Anonymous said...

Just know that I am thinking and praying for you and your family today as always. Your fears are justified.. any change or anything new is always scarey. Just concentrate on regaining your strength!! Let God do the rest..because as we know... Through God all things are possible!
kristi fandrei-rogers

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